My Writing Process (Expository)

MY WRITING PROCESS

Don't be fooled, all writers are liars. We know how to formulate stories and we break all the rules in our craft, even the ones we set. Add to that, good writers know how to steal, yes. We live in a world of words where anything we see resembles a buffet that all it takes is a clever brain with a pens stroke to rearrange any letter, word or group of words to suit our purposes and sinister schemes- remember what I said from the start.

 But you can trust me. In all, my best work is complete when I know not what to write. I do not have a library of 'good stuff '  but I can actually sense when a project is good and when it is poorly written. A lost note is lost forever, never quite comes out the same way, a piece of my mind I may never see again.

Its how I make sense of the world and my experiences with it. If this note was to be deleted somehow, could I  duplicate the content once more in it?

God knows I dont like cluster, I need my own space sometimes. I dislike to be invaded because lack of freedom suppresses my emotional state. I know we live in a bossy world.. but to be told what to do all the time is out of the question. I dont like to usurp authority over people unnecessarily- I guess im a wanderer.

I do not know how I write or where it comes from because there is no method to the madness. I am sometimes surprised at what I produce on paper, mos times its beyond my comprehension- I cant retrace the steps of my work. I say madness because the act of writing to me is a kind of mental illness almost like you hearing your own words mocking and criticizing you over and over and over in your head after a conversation with someone.I just take it as it comes without question.

The writing itself seems to dictate its own direction and path as I progress with my pen for the toughest part is the beginning. However once I see the first words, the writing generally finishes itself so naturally most times. I sometimes hold soft internal and external conversations with myself trying to make sense of what I want to convey. I even do that when Im not trying to write. I dont believe any writer sets out on a mission to 'auto-correct'- they just write and then make sense after.

The writers mind is like a confused mess of unsorted garbage locked away in space before he fleshes out his thoughts on paper. Only he has the key to free himself from that confused state. To say what cant be said in a clearest way possible is the challenge. Almost like how God separated darkness from light and then put things in order. But like the creator, who when he finished his work was pleased, mos writers are perfectionist who will not rest until satisfied with their work. Some writers are lazy. They will think it, but they wont take time to express it- give up too easy. I had to overcome this, I fight it everyday! They envision the end product but get discouraged in the process. They hit rock bottom falling asleep at the wheel of writers block and crash into a dump with no hope of getting out- this is the writers curse. The writers can be an unstable atom, if not careful.

Because sometimes the magic is nowhere to be found and you get really depressed. Other times it flows like a river in an almost endless cycle of joy. However its hard to hear myself in noisy areas so quiet places are more suitable for me. It can take a long period to complete a writing project at times. But if its inspired (meaning I dont exert effort) it can only take a few minutes. These occasions are rear, I understand them even less than writing with a purpose, however, I think it has to do with mood.To me writing is easier than speaking it is an act of  poetic  self justice, a sweet release from reality with a touch of comfort


And while writing is not something I practice everyday because you will run into a ditch I promise, it does help my thought processing and emotional states.There is a natural high you get from expressing the honesty of your feelings and ideas in a creative manner. To me creativity is almost like worship- it lifts you up!The feeling of satisfaction I get from a job well done is comparable to a famous singer hitting a high note full of mystical expression. Its like a good piece of music from your favorite artiste that you listen and sing over and over and over imagining desperately you were the composer.And though I certainly am not the best, I know for a fact Im not the worst. This is perhaps one of few  things I can do well and  all because of an inhibition to speaking much.


Mythical_Poet
2012