There is nothing like when one gets inspired by God to write. God reveals himself in many ways to me but more specifically through personal conversation. Im not a religious fanatic or extremist, but what im about to share is very extreme. I am confident in what I’m saying knowing the seriousness of the implications- no worries. I have heard His voice on few occasions and I would not move. When He talks to you, you can’t help but remain still and listen. God operates like the wind, you can’t see it but you can feel it, you don’t know where it comes from but you see the effects of it- that is how God talks to me. I don’t know when He is going to come and at what time or place He decides to speak to me but it’s always in the most unusual and unexpected times when I least expect it. You just can’t sit around and wait for something like that. Months even years would pass without him saying a word. His schedule is ridiculous, He’s always busy, yet still makes time for you- that’s awesome! Importantly, God doesn’t spoon feed, nope; He challenges you to make a move. He pushes you to stand on your feet. He likes when you are independent and exercise faith. He won’t do for you what you can do for yourself. He wants to see you win. As I said, he won’t spoon feed, but when He sees you trying to eat on your own, he’ll stop by and give you a pat. That’s how He is. He’s always there but he’s never there.
How would you feel if the President of the US was to pass through your town for a few minutes to greet people, wouldn’t you be excited? Do you see the President of the United States every day? It sure would be memorable. What if he pointed to you, yes you, approached and asked your name, perhaps what you are studying or even shook your hand! Yet before the conversation even started, he would be taken away, for urgent matters, he says Goodbye to you calling your name encouraging you to write him and work hard. He took a particular interest in you- mind-blowing. You feel special.
The first time He spoke was in April of 2009. This was the most intense experience I’ve ever had. My spirit was moved in such a way that I had to respond back to the force that was pulling me. I won’t get into the details of the conversation but I will describe the experience. I felt very calm like the sound of the sea on a summer’s day, my breathing was normal, I felt very warm and comforted and tears were flowing down my face uncontrollably- this lasted perhaps a minute or less before I returned to normal- it felt like forever. I was very excited but not alarmed.
Okay, I’m tempted to tell you what he said. For summary, He explaining to me that the world is not going to get any better; he wanted me to be ready and faithful, no matter what happens. He reminded me never to forget him, what he has done, and his love for me etc. He refused to tell me what was going to happen. But I did ask. Honestly it felt like danger. I got the sense while he spoke, that he was not going to intervene with the world. He was relaying some kind of bad news. Almost like a teacher saying to a student “good luck my son” before a test, “I’ve done everything to help you now the rest is up to you- you can do it”. He was keeping some hidden danger from me and I knew it deep down. But I was not afraid, his presence would not allow any fear- I got stronger emotionally from that moment on- to this day. He wasn’t happy with what was happening in the world, it felt like he was putting up his hands- it seemed. The scary part is I felt like he was packing his bags, he was hurt, at the same time He was preparing to do something terrible which he didnt want to do. Like saying goodbye to someone at the airport who is leaving- you know that feeling? The evil was rising God is letting things be. Like Jesus when he said in the garden of Gethsemane, "Do what you have to do". That’s the best way I can explain it. His last words, "the world is coming to an end, Martin". That's it.
Perhaps I shouldn’t say this was the first. I would receive small ‘drops’ before this experience but this was the longest duration. In addition, this was the only time I heard a small voice, expressing directly to me in conversation.
After this event in 2009 years had passed before I received another experience. After this experience as time progressed I started to feel bitterness toward God ( hard to explain) that made me love him even more, but I always remembered. Almost like im saying how dare he just come and go and not say a word. I felt very unworthy I tried to distance myself, forgetting the experience, but his message stuck with me like glue. When God speaks to you, you have to stop whatever your doing and listen. In one poem I wrote, I referred to him as a Gentle Stranger who “comes and goes just as he sees suddenly like moves of trees”.
Listen, you have to understand that I had no idea why this was happening to me except what I would read in the Bible. In the Bible Jesus described the working of the spirit, I found a close relationship between my experience and what was written. I didn’t say, “God why don’t you speak to me today”, no, I can’t make this up, turn it on or off, it happened unexpectedly, almost like he chose me. I’m just a normal person, what could God want with me? And also I never received any visions or dreams or anything like that. I never passed out on the ground like Ellen White, but I believe God spoke to her, after having my experience. I dont claim to be a Prophet nor do I want to be- but I heard his voice, thats the truth.
For me it’s an emotional connection that lets me know when He is near. God’s presence is like a scent of perfume you are familiar with, once you smelt it before you automatically remember what it is. God is a reminding clock, he always reminds you of things he did before, he also comforts and warns- he is a teacher.
In this case He is a very strong scent. I am always stirred emotionally in my spirit whenever he comes close, my breathing changes slightly, sometimes tears fall, it all depends on the level of energy emitted. You must understand that God is an energy source, the Bible says He is light- light is energy. Genesis says that God “moved” upon the face of the deep. The Bible also says he is a spirit- spirit is energy. That’s why when you get too hungry you feel weak, you need food. Food has energy value. Energy consumes and can destroy if it gets too close. Anyway I won’t get into the Physics and chemistry of it, but only to say God works through the states of matter. He is a spirit and you are a spirit. And just like Magnets attract- spirits attract. Spirits can also repel. Good and evil spirits fight every day. Spirit influences spirit. there is a world we cant see with our natural eyes, we need 'spiritual goggles' otherwise we stumble.
Anyway I don’t boast about my experience, I just wrote to share so somebody else can relate. God speaks to all believers and non believers too if you just open your heart and let him in.
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