Why I Quit Nursing pt 2

I was really in the wrong field. My peers, some who were much older than me asked

what I was doing in Nursing. I like to think of myself as the prophet Jonah who ran

away from God, except I didnt know where I was suppose to be.

I was actually a Poet. Looking back I see that I never could have made it as a Nurse.

Im too sensitive and emotional to the needs of others, which would make it

impossible for me to make some logical left brained decisions.

Nurses are not soft, infact they are more skillful than doctors pertaining to patient care

You have to have emotional control to be a nurse. Something has to die inside you.

It actually is slavery, unfortunately that is the reality. It is very self giving.

My hat goes of.

A proverb says, the road to hell is paved with good intentions. My on-surface intentions for nursing
were 'good' but the underlying reason for me doing it was not. If you're doing nursing
for selfish reasons like money, you wont be happy.
Go do business or become a politician or something.
Nursing takes away from you, you are giving your life away everyday
with little to no reward. Im sorry if it sounds negative- but its true.
But they're people who love it.
Once I saw the bigger picture of the profession I was entering, I saw a bigger picture of life
The corruption in Nursing is just a small example of a bigger corruption of society.
I wanted no part of it, I couldn't play the game and so I pushed myself out.
Because it is a game, and if you have a pumping heart filled with blood, chances are
you wont play it well.

I didnt stay long enough to properly see the politics in Nursing but as a student it was real.
As reality kicked in, I had to kick out, but not without a fight.
It became obvious to me that some nurses never really cared for patients
they were just counting down their time to leave a shift and start another.
It is a cold place.
My first few weeks in the hospital scene was filled with excitement and
interest in learning, a little too much.
My instructors didnt like that I was so involved, even after they said to 'get involved'
I really thought I could make a difference.
It seems what I had in mind was not the intention of everyone else
I didnt like how some Nurses treated patience and how they talked to them.
I was being broken, and it was just a matter of time.

I really dont know how to say this correctly, but around that time, I felt great sympathy for myself.
I was really confused and made plans to leave. I prayed. I cried. I felt like a failure.
Every day I put of my decision to walk out, but one particular day
I sensed the presence of two forces in my mind. A part of me wanted to stay
and a part wanted to walk out, I couldn't decided which was stronger
As I silently contemplated I stopped what I was doing. I looked around the place,
I said to myself, "what am I doing", "I dont belong here", let me go
That very day I walked out.

That was the begining of my recovery and a new experience all together.
It was the first time I listened to my gut instincts and followed my heart
I didnt want to treat myself like that anymore. I was lucky to escape hell and hope I didnt
descourage anyone because that was not my intention.
Im better of where I am, and though other carrier are not as secure, I have peace of mind
I can do what I want, and go where I want and not be tied down.

Instead of being a Nurse be a Doctor, Still I could not be a Doctor.
Being a Doctor is just as stressful and you have to have a talent and calling for the
 Medical field generally
Its sad that Nursing is the way it is and people are fighting to get in.
Its sad that the politics in nursing is a wild jungle;and the health industry is actually a
commercial business
Its sad so many good nurses suffer because of the flaws of the profession by
admininstraters
who could not care less whether a patient lives or dies as long
as the name of the hospital is intact
Its sad that I will never see the world the same again, it is what it is
a cold place.
God is the most abused name in the world.
I take responsibility for myself.

Mythical_Poet